Damned PerfectionEvery word you say is poetry
Every breath you take is another breath in me
Every move you make is another toward checkmate
And it seems that I can't win this game
But I'll still adore you just the same
Call it damnation, call it fate
And yet it's just another day
In this fantasy world called Hell.
Tears in the windAll I wanted was someone to see
I'm not as strong as I pretend to be.
Someone who could part the veil
Unravel my illusions to see my "real".
Am I that great a deceiver?
Or does no one care enough to try?
It feels as if my whole life all I've done is
Live a lie. But how to separate truth from fiction?
What is merely suspicion?
Crimson stains upon dull hearts
My vices have succeeded in tearing me apart.
So where the hell do I start?
Is there none out there in the vast abyss
Capable or willing to jigsaw this,
Puzzle that be my heart?
Can you sew me back together but keep a single part?
I know it's possible to exist without a full working heart
As long as it still beats, well thats a start.
I really don't demand much, attention don't cost a cent,
But is that still too much for you to part with?
Materialistic I'm not,
But my razor bladed tongue slashes everyone.
I'm rather kind of stubborn
I like to get my way.
But If you attempt to take a chance on me
I'm sure I can change my ways.
There is pain in truthThe hours clock by, my eyes glued to the screen.
Waiting, willing your name to appear.
My heart kicks when it does, surpassing legal speed limits.
Two days have dragged on by, every name but the one
I crave has chosen to appear.
To say I'm miserable at best would be a gross understatement.
I'm aching for you, your words, your voice, your arms,
No others will suffice. Mistakes fall from my lips,
As I fall from your grace. I've never been perfect.
Tell me should I quit? Have I become too much for you
To deal with? Don't worry about the pain your answer will inflict.
Ignorance may be kind, but I find the truth a more comfortable pain.
I'd rather know than make of myself a bigger fool.
So tell me baby, do you want me to cease the fight?
To just go quietly into the dark night?
That way you could strike me from your mind
As If I'd never been apart of you, no crime.
Let GoI'm so broken
I can't leave this past behind
What's in my heart
With what's in my mind
I'm worried about everything
I just want to cry
Talk to my best friend
Know someone is by my side
I spent some time alone
Tried to distract myself
Realized that what I needed
Was God's help
During the night
I thought about life
I need to stop
Living in strife
In the past
I screwed up alot
That doesn't mean
I can't move on
Tonight I cried
Because I actually felt free!
I laughed a REAL laugh
For the first time in weeks
It felt like Heaven;
To smile for real.
Insteda of faking it;
A false shield.
My heart was in all stitches.
I used to believe it'd stay that way for life.
But now some of it has truly healed
And I need to do away with this strife
Though it will be hard,
I'll probably lose sleep
I can finally toss out my bad memories.
And the good ones I shall keep
I want to move on with my life
Be happy again
But I need help
From my closest friends.
What My Nightmare Sings To MeWhen my heart broke, was it audible?
Was the pain made evident by the tears on my face?
Was it perceptible when the soul left my body?
Can you tell that I'm truly in a separate place?
I remain on this earth, but I'm in another world
I'm trapped, condemned to my own heartache
Who knew life could be as cruel as you?
You're the cause of every single heart-break
Leave me to bleed here, all alone
Leave me here in solitude to cry
You've lost my trust, I have lost it all
All that is left to do is die.
I'm the corpse, you're the murderer
You're the nightmare, I'm the dreamer
I'm the prey, you're the predator
You're the pain, I'm the screamer
The stars are closing in
The bullets are coming my way
My world will soon end
Three cheers for the final day
Destiny and FateYou can't be broken
Cause for that you'd have to feel.
I'm not saying that you don't care
Or even that it's not real
I'm just stating I don't see
How I mean everything
And how I want this lifetime
To be our deal.
You've been burned time and time
Again and those scars don't really heal.
I've got plenty of my own hun
So I know just how you feel.
I've been searching in all the wrong places
Sleeping with all the wrong faces.
I've become just as jaded
But that doesn't stop me from feeling.
I never wanted this
I knew from hello that you
Would be the greatest pain I'd ever know.
And still I tucked my hand in yours
Blithely followed where you go.
I made the choice to take the chance
I felt you were the one.
I still believe you are
But the fight in me is done.
I need to know I'm worth it
That I really mean that much
And if you don't come after me
Well I guess we've both had enough.
You name is write upon my heart
The stars have scribed us in the skies
Fate has played her hand
But destiny is our
Secret ThoughtI'm depressed,
And I don't know why.
I take that back.
That's a lie.
I want to cry,
But my eyes won't let me.
You'd probably think
My reason is silly.
I think about my
Old way of coping.
I regret it everyday
So don't think I'm moping
If I hadn't stopped
I could be dead by now
I'm glad most people
Never found out
"A Virgo's secret desire:
To love and be loved."
I don't want to be judged
Seven years passed.
I never had a chance.
No use in taking
A fighting stance.
"I know God wouldn't put me through anything He knows I can't handle...
I just wish He didn't trust me so much."
Love's LabelsHold me tight in your embrace
Loosen ties of envy and hate,
Fill the holes with love so strong.
Every time I sing
It'll be your song.
Kiss my tears
Taste the saltiness of my fears.
My yin released, rising up
To meet your yang.
It's sensual, seductive,
Forehead to forehead,
So intimately divine.
Our souls touch for a brief minute
One pure as fresh fallen snow,
The other black,
Dark as the devil's own.
Angels and demons,
Woman and man.
We're all the same,
We feel the same,
Bleed the same,
We're all the same,
It's only labels that brand.
We meant to let it dieHold me tight against your chest
Lest the wind of hurt, pain me again.
Whisper in my ear, words of love and passion,
I need the security of your voice in this time of uncertainty.
But my heart is heavy, and your arms are cold.
You're not here, it's just the ghostly lingers
Of your touch, your soul.
How could you have left me so alone?
fear doesn't hide from any season
i decided it would be best to run away,
i turned my back on your reasons,
this winter, i'm afraid i could not stay,
i used to think i meant something,
you made me feel like i was assurance,
but your words and my things left a sting,
i'm sure this looks like it doesn't make any sense,
You know they say that bliss is ignorance
I could have done without your poison's kiss.
And for every lie you told, I told three more
I guess neither of us shall ever see heaven's door.
You used to mean the world to me
But then I found my world had changed.
No longer were you able to restrain me
Without that strength I crave, you and I